Time isn't healing

Sunday, September 5, 2010

dreams you could never have ;).

Okay, I am bored, so I shall do this really stupid, yet sweet thing :)
I hope you guys who have blogs do this too though, and write it on my cbox, or those that doesn't have blogs could write it in wordpad/microsoft and send it to me, so I'd know more about you :)
Well, write something that you always wanted, but could never have. As in, really could never have it anymore. It could be material, dreams, fantasies, hope, anything. Describe everything :)
Likewise, I'd be doing this too. And Rayhan, I'm counting on you to spread this :P

I've always wanted a little brother.
I know what those who does have it are thinking...
"They are a menace; they never listens to me; I hate them; why would you wish for such a thing?; they are horrible little buggers." and so on.
Well, I probably could never understand how you feel, because maybe, just maybe, I'd feel that way when I do have a little brother as I was growing up.
But nonetheless, I really want a little brother :)
I don't know why, I honestly don't know.
It's always a BROTHER I want, not a sister :P
When I was in primary school, I always see friends with little siblings bring lunch for them, and I thought that was incredibly cute. How I wish I have someone to do that for me.
I have the whole ideal brother in my head (heheh)
He'd be only 2-3 years younger than me.
Any gap bigger would deteriorate our relationship...
I'd be that, loving sister (LOL), who fights and squabbles with him about the littlest things.
And also take care and look out for them in every possible way.

This probably sounds ridiculous, but yeah.
I do want a brother I can always fret and argue and get frustrated and angered and worry about.
It sounds absolutely ludicrous and crazy, but...yeah :)
It'd be nice, to protect a little brother, no matter how embarrassed he might feel if I defended him when he get bullied.
That's what a sister do...in my opinion.
And probably, I don't know, steer him into the right direction.
I would never tolerate a smoking, drugging, bullying little brother :(
It doesn't matter if his studies isn't as good, but never those stuff stated above.
And I would totally enjoy pinching his cheeks in school :D
But definitely not in front of his friends...he might feel embarrassed =/
Or if he doesn't care, then yeah, I'd do it all the time :D

So yeah, that's the dream/fantasy/hope I never had.
Never could have.
Because you know...my mom is long pass the appropriate age to have another baby.
And don't even suggest that other thing -.- because I will smack you. And foul mouthed you.
And also curse you. So don't even think.
I am...looking forward to reading your anything you could never have I guess?
If no one's interested, I wouldn't mind.
I would just lie here, in my epitomy of self-ignorance and disgrace.
:) xoxo